crap

I feel very bad, do I think this is just a bad night? Or whatever I'm thinking it? Still want to be with him? "Makes me unhappy?

I will never forget the words that somebody told me "You need someone who is available to you, what you need to be happy is TIME. You need time to be happy you did not ask anything else and I can give you. I hope you find someone who will devote all his time and he'll give you all the happiness that I could give you " Over time I understood these words this person said, i found the person that makes me happy, I've almost 4 years of knowing him, but now is the time when he no longer has time for me. maybe I'm an immature little girl, but what do I do?

Our love is falling slowly but in a painful way am I the only one who cares? Am I so dramatic? I do not feel the support I should have, the only calls me a dramatic, do not get nice words.

I do not know if I continue loving him. what if I start to feel is hate, hate that feeds on foolishness. he never thinks about the damage he does to me, never thinks about what I feel. he does not know that my heart is breaking for some time.

he does not know that my heart is breaking slowly. he does not know that I no longer fantasize about getting married. now my life is concerned. I live my life angry all the time I am angry, not only with him. I am mad to be thinking all the time on him the whole time he's in my head. I can not concentrate on anything! Everything goes wrong.

The question is: Do we have any future? Is it worth all this? "He is the love of my life?